I'm sick; of mucus and drama.

Ugh, I hate being sick; so much. This is the worst kind of sick too, it's not physically it's all in my head. I am so congested and UGH. I have nothing to do today either, and I am so far behind on my schoolwork. I've had a lot of time to think about though. I'm actually pretty sure I want to leave public school. I hate the drama, so so so so so much! It's way too much work, day to day. There was a girl, who had been going through a lot with this boy she liked, and he got a girlfriend. Now, I had been in the same situation before, so I gave her advice and helped her through it. She walked up to me the other day, and said to me, "I would have never assumed it can hurt so much, you go through so much more than you let on." I guess it had never really occurred to me that I am more emotionally inclined than I let on. I never cry, so people never see me weak. I write, and that's my weakness. I just guess that yesterday when I was sitting in homeroom, with my IPod on, and I randomly teared up at the thought of someone, I think it hit me. I may not show it, but, the drama is wearing me down. I am so close to falling. Like I'm on the spot on the cliff thats too close to the edge, do you know what I'm talking about? Probably not, my thoughts are all over the place right now.  The point is, is that my emotions are being toyed with, and I don't know how much longer it will be until I fall apart..