Some heavy thinking

"Forgive and Forget"

Do we ever really forget what we forgive? Is it truly possible to let go of the things that leave scars on us?

Nope. Not me. I remember everything. I hold grudges. I commonly use the phrase, "I told you so." I'm not going to deny it. I can be a bitch. haha. But, things that happen that hurt us, is it really dafe to let go? Think about it, if we had just forgiven and forgotten the holocaust then, who's to say it wouldn't of happened again? If the world had just let the 9/11 guys off with a warning, where would we be now? My point is is that, things that happen, no matter what it is, we never forget them. We may jam them into very far corners of our brains but, no we never forget. So, with that said, I guess, I can't ever use that quote for anything..haha. Uhm, let's see. Has anything ever happened to you in your life that you wish you could forget? I know for me there's just about x123456789 things I wish I could forget. But, at the same time, everything that happens to you, only makes you who you are, and you should be thankful for all of the things that have happened to you, good and bad, because, it makes you who you are. Uhm,so today I went food shopping for the second time haha, we got all of the foods you need to survive: chicken, cookies, milk, ham, lobster rolls, and apples to apple the card game. haha, tomorrow Laura's dad is out on business and we won't have a car but, I think we will be just fine..(: hahaha, I'm currently almost done my 34th poem in my new journal.(: woohoo! It's coming along! haha, well I hope you guys are having fun wherever you are! Hope my thinking makes you think!

music
"they weren't there" - Missy Higgins

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"Remember, to always keep your priorities straight, even when I'm gone remember. If you don't have your priorities striaght, well, then there's no point in living." - quote from my best friend Orlando, who in two days, is moving to Brasil.

Orlando, I hope that your adventures aren't few and far between. I pray you have the time of your life, and that Brasil is as much of a party as you say it is. I will miss you so much, you were always there for me, and always there for me. I cannot ever repay you for not just being a listener, but an advice giver, a best friend, someone who held me up when I fell, and a strong person. I love you so much, bye Mex. <3 I'm sad I'm not around to say goodbye.

Thoughts on: Animals and thinking

Okay, so I've been thinking..does it ever cross anyone's mind when playing with a pet what your pet's thinking? Like, Laura and I were just playing with her dog Lola, and I always wonder, when we make the dog jump, is it entertainment or determination? Is it work or play? Wanting the ball that's on the other side of the jump, is that good? What if we were animals for a day, and the animals were us, would it be all smiles or revenge? Would they taunt us with food? Hmm...let's just be thankful in a way, that animals thoughts are for their minds only. Those lucky animals, they can understand us but, we fail to understand them. (;

songs/artists for today

Jack Johnson ( <3>

"Taylor" <>

Joe Purdy

"Wash Away (Reprise)" <>

to the beach! haha, let's pray there's no fog or rain, but, I think we will be just finee.(:

quote - " never did she lisp it and 'twas it not for me she was mute from transport, and I from agony!" - Emily Dickinson Morns like These We Parted

Summer 2010- reflection, rambling, and suchh.

So basically, my life has been an effin whirl wind lately.

Boy drama + finals + missing assignments + trying to get published = not so good. I have been dealing with a lot lately, and I have a question for you guys. Do you have any drama going on right now? I know I do, well, I'm dealing with the aftermath. Sometimes it's hard to think I'm only thirteen, because, I just don't think or act like anyone else. Nothing I do seems to go right, and I always overreact to EVERYTHING. But, I can't help it, it's who I am. School finished on Friday, so I am done with it all for a while. I look back on this past year, and see how much I have changed. It's a little ridiculous to think about it, and to think about the things I have experienced, and what I have taken away from it. I entered a new school, not knowing that the pressure level really does hit an all time high. I am also proud to say I never put one cigarette, or alcohol to my mouth. No pot either ha ha. I have also learned, that nothing here matters now. The people I meet now, are only characters' in a chapter of my life, they don't affect who I marry, where I go to school, or if I am successful. I think that was what I have taken away, and it helps me deal with the after shock of a boy drama earthquake, if you will. I have definitely changed and think in the end, it is all for the better. Well, I have Bible Camp conciling tomorrow bright and early, 8:3o a.m, third graders here I come! I have to go shower and then sleep! Hope you enjoyed a meaningful post from my eyes.