You never called me like you said you would. I guess I knew it would end this way. You never texted me; like I prayed you would. I am still sitting here wondering, why, with someone waiting on me, am I choosing to step away because in the end all I want is you.

bacccktocapecod!

I am packing for Cape Cod again! Oh my gosh, I miss it so much, it's been almost 7 months since I've been at my fantastic home away from home with my fantastic best friend Laura and my second family. This time, we are also announcing the coming of a new adventurer named Annika! I am really excited to have her come along because she is just the sweetest girl ever! I am so pumped I have to go pack I will talk to you all when I get to Cape Cod! Have a beautiful night! 

one of those FML days..

so, for today's FML. uh, I was at soccer, all sweaty and red-faced when a team comes in. I ignore it and do my drills, I look over, it's a team of super hot guys, and worst of all, I had to walk right through all of them to get to my bag.

FML.

9 Loves

9 Loves

1. My family  

2. Criminal Minds

3. Cute clothes

4. My poetry book

5. Laughter

6. Summers at the beach

7. Really good hugs from a really hot guy

8. Music, that talks about more than just sex&money

9. You, whoever took the time to read this

Tell me that You Love Me; Tell Me That I Take Your Breath Away

10 Secrets

10 Secrets

1. I really do hate when all people talk about is clothes, and materialistic things

2. I wish I was a different ethnicity because, I feel like white people have nothing to be proud of

3. I feel dirty loving that boy; because, I know you do too

4. I keep all of my issues hidden; because, I know every one thinks I have nothing to be upset about

5. I am secretly extremely self conciouss 

6. I went back and edited my secrets because, my secrets weren't honest enough

7. I tell people that I don’t believe in God sometimes to just separate myself, but, the truth is, I do believe there is something out there watching me 

8. As stupid as this is, I am still scared of crossing the street, or dying and not having living my life the way I wanted to 

9. I hold really long grudges because, I get hurt too often to forgive fast

10. I over think every little thing, what means nothing to you, means everything to me 

Counting Sheep

We make promises we cannot keep
To pass the time
Like counting sheep;
Every night
and
Every day
Different obstacles are
 thrown our way
Those long lost words
We promised each other
Are whisked away in the wind
Tangled in one other
Becoming once was
And never were's;
It's a stupid game
We try to play
because;
There are some promises you cannot keep
But we make them to occupy time
Like counting sheep

My Confession

My confession is that I made the biggest mistake letting you slip from my fingers. You’re everything to me, honestly, and you have no idea. You just think I’m your friend. You walk with me, and hug me, and we share “I love you“‘s and laugh. I look at you and no matter how confusing and terrifying my life is, I know that you are here, you won’t leave me, and it makes everything okay. Your eyes are my favorite part of your body, the way you look at me somedays, like you never want me to walk away, and like we could talk forever. You are my favorite person, because, you are your own person. You do what you want to do, and aren’t afraid of what people think. I finally came to realize, that, I really did love you, and right then, it seemed like you just faded out for a while. I was terrified that I never meant anything to you. Eventually, we worked it out, and I was okay again. I could not imagine my life without you. I trust you, and confide everything in you because, not another soul will ever know. I hate that when I hug you, you can just let go, walk away, and not care. I hug you, you walk away, and can’t wait for my next chance to be wrapped up in you. You never try to hurt me, you never wanted to. It just sucks that, after trying to move on, so so so many time, I am still here, on a fucking blog, writing you my confession that you are never going to see. 

Broken Frames

See the pictures that we paint
walk from broken frames
see the faces scream out stories
of promises we made
See the humans turn and look
startled as they walk
See my face turn bright red
as my paintings start to talk
See the secrets spill on out
one by one
but, please don't shout
See the pain sting me
when a man I drew begins to say
"You promised you would watch over her
each and every day
Some promises are kept
and others brutally broken"
My painting climbs back to the walls
the truth had been spoken

It's just not fair

It's not fair
that you can hug me
walk away
and forget it ever happened
and that
I  hug you
walk away
and never forget it
that none of this matters to you
to you it's a hug
but, when I do that
It means
never let me go

I just hate the feeling every time you turn the corner. It's like a punch in the stomach and a stab in my heart. As cliche' as it sounds it's all so true. I get in knots when I am around you. I get tounge tied. I don't know what to say to impress you, or make you see me the way I see you. There are no words to describe how you've completely flipped me. I see things in a different light because of you, and I am thankful for it. But, I need to accept that as much as I want you to, you don't want me. I am not going to put all of my energy into someone that doesn't care enough to be honest with me. You can't talk to me about this, so why am I even here? Because, I can't help but want to be a part of your life. It's unfair to me. It's ridiculous. It's stupid and I want to cry but, my tears are dried up. I am done, out of emotion. I need to find someone else to channel my energy into. Someone who will take me and be happy I'm here. I don't know about you, somedays I'm okay, and other days I am not. I through myself into this, because I thought you weren't like the other ones but, I am wrong.

J'abandonne

So basically it's snowing again, I have no plans, and no life. It's pretty boring for me right now. Things have lately been boring for me. There is not much to talk about but, I'll probably have some long thing later! Love you all Bye!

My Attempt at French I

Bonjour! J'mappelle Kathryn. Je quatorze onze. J'aime beocoup foot c'est cool. J'naime pas jouer au cartes c'est barbont.

There is some french one for all of you. (: I know I have probably just spelled a lot of it wrong but, whatever. (: hahah I had a really good day today, and am really really tired! I'm going to be in bed soon but, I hope everyone else had a good day like me!

"The trouble with school is they always try to teach the wrong lessons; believe me I've been kicked out enough of them to know. They want you to become less callow, less shallow but, I say why invite stress in? Stop studying strife and learn to live the unexamined life.."

2011

It's the new year. (: so I thought I should share my new years resolution..

BE HEALTHIER.

who's with me?! (: