I promise today to never forget who I am.

Promise 2

I promise myself today, to feel emotion.

I speak the Truth; In hopes that others learn the language

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness and nothing is so gentle as real strength." -Ralph W. Sockman 

A Promise A Day

I sometimes thank God, even though I am not quite sure I believe in him. Other times I damn Satan for doing the things he does. I am all over the place sometimes, and it requires a lot of thought. I have been thinking. I am done with wasting my life, on “love” whatever the hell that is. I am done worrying about facebook, or how much better looking I think someone is. I am over the superficial aspects of my life. I am aiming high, I have big dreams, and it requires a lot. That is what I am aiming for, and I am finished with my past. Today I begin studying, today, I begin working towards my goal. I am promising myself to be done with it all, with 8th grade, and begin striving for new things, better things, things that will ultimately keep me sane, and help me some day in the future. 


I am going to try my best to everyday post a promise I make. I hope you enjoy them! 

Christmas Shopping

I am so excited for Christmas! I honestly cannot wait for it, for December. I love the holidays, not necessarily because of the presents(although I do love those too) it's because of the mood it puts everyone in. It seems that there is less fighting, less tension between people, and more peace(?). I just like how the snow falls, and how everyone gets excited. How happy my family becomes. Christmas shopping always gets me excited because I love to imagine that Christmas is less than a month away now. Hallelujah! Haha, and for the people reading this, that celebrate Hannuka or Kwanza, I hope you get just as excited for the holiday season as I do, haha. My mom just got an IPad as an early graduation present, thats a few months late haha. She loves it, so anyone looking for one great present, go for the IPad. (: well, I hope your black friday was as fun as mine! Hahah!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! And to those of you that don't celebrate it, happy day!(:

Out of all of the silences
And "oh what to do"'s
I wish I just took one of them
And kissed you
Would you have kissed back?
You told me once so
But I question your reliability
Because you also said
You'd lie to make someone feel better
You have lied to me I believe
But when I was leaving
And you swept me up
Had me on the ground
I hoped you might have kissed me
It seemed good enough
But maybe I have seen this wrong
And are interpretating the signals wrong
And am imagining it in my head
But I will forever wish I didn't
Have to wonder
I wish it couldve just been that way
But I guess I won't know
Until we meet again
And I will make sure
That next silence
I will fill it with a kiss

a photo shoot kind of day!

so I decided, I would splurge for myself, take the time to do my makeup and hair, and take a few pretty pictures. (:

Snow White- Remixxx

a gorgeous girl
put to sleep by a pretty apple
as red as her lips
and as hard as her stare
she wasn't one to deserve it
and was hated for being so perfect
because the mirror mirror on the wall
said she was fairest of them all
and the ugliest grew jealous
and almost cut her story too short
until a prince came to save her
a kiss upon her perfect lips
brought her up from her rest
had her moving
and singing once again
your smile is like that to me
your smile brings me back to life
and that perfect kiss you gave me
still lingers on my lips
whether you loved me or not
you kissed me and you meant it

Gamblers Unite!

Love is a lot like gambling. Some people put all of their money on the table, and others are more reserved. It's a game of strategy, if you want to win, you have to keep your poker face on until you know the game is yours. Some come rich, and feel no pain in dishing it out. Others come poor, broken and stolen from, and feel nervous giving money but, have secret hopes that one day they will score a million, and a heart. Love is like a big casino; and baby, I'm addicted. Don't get like me though, because, I'm running out, and soon I will be poor with no more money to spend, no more heart to give. Pretty soon I will be dry, and I will be alone, unless I find a man, who is a fountain of love.

Just something I wrote in resource study hall. (:

Justin Bieber.

Okay, girls, we need to have a chat. Look, Justin's cute but, not incredbile? He's no God haha. Okay, so the back story behind this is basically that, I was on twitter (being a twitter-er) and I was lurking Justin Bieber and who he follows. Every single girl on there (mostly) was like, "OH MY GOD I LOVE JUSTIN HE FOLLOWED ME AT 11:56:04 ON 10/9/10! AHHHHHHHH WE LOVE YOU.<3". That basically sums it all up, so I cleverly tweeted back (tagging him of course) pointing out that, I only follow him because I have been secretly waiting for the day he tweets, "I hit puberty."! How great would that be? So yeah, that's my back story! But, I seriously don't get it! Being obsessed with him on twitter is just weird. Being obsessed with anyone on any type of social networking site is weird.. sorry girls. Kayla, I know your all RPatz but, no worries, it's different, Justin Bieber, makes everything different.(: Have fun you crazy fan girls but remember, "following him on twitter will not secure your spot as his wife."

Behavior Analysis Unit

I was watching Criminal Minds the other day with my mom, and honest to God I love this show. It makes my day. The ideas and how they solve things are so out of the box, and creative. I really have spend a lot of time wiking about the behavior analysis unit, and it's actually a pretty interesting job. I was never one to want to be a cop, but, things like the mind I could actually see myself doing. Just thought I'd share! What do you want to be when you grow up?

I know, I haven't posted in a few weeks! Shame on me! I have been so busy with school work, and prep for Halloween that I have hardly had anytime at all to even touch my computer! Nothing is super new for me, it was Halloween yesterday which is always exciting, I went as a cat with 7 other girls! It was so much fun, and although, it's cold now, it was an enjoyable night! I have just had an all together good night. I got a new laptop cover for my macbook in a deep purple! I was so excited, it makes my computer just so much more personal and my own. I'm big on personalizing stuff because, I feel like if it's yours you should make it your own! But, anyway I hope everyone had a great halloween(: see you all soon!