I'm 14! :D haha finally! (: shopping this weekend! Life's pretty good not much to say today!

Birthdayyyyyy!

It's my birthday tomorrow! :D I am so excited! I can't get over the fact that I am actually lucky enough to even have another birthday (after my accident and all..). I am just going to live it up to the best of my abilities! Fun fact about my birthday- Zach Effron and Ne-Yo were both born on my birthday! For those of you who don't know who they are, they are very famous actors(Effron) and Musicians(Ne-Yo)! October is also National(American) LGBT month! (: See you guys soon! Happy Birthday to anyone else who was born on this spectacular day!

Young love sucks. Nothig makes sense, dramas always circulating around it, and rumors can destroy relationships. I lost one of my closest friends recently over a guy. And you know what? He wasn't, isnt, and never will be worth the girl I lost. Claire, if you're reading this then, I am genuinely sorry if I ever hurt you. I love you like a sister, and a boy isn't worth what we are. Now Claire if you read this and say hell naw then, I guess our friendship didn't mean as much to you as it did to me. No boy is worth this. We're young we need to be out living life, not wasting time with stupid things like this. Okay guys the massage is, to never let the little thing come between you and the people you Iove because when all hell breaks loose, those people are gonna be the only ones left. I know from experience that you should always put those people first. Young love doesn't even really matter. You're not gonna marry them it's just a time filled with false feelings. Love and lust are two very different things, and I think at this age, we get them mixed up.

I feel lucky somedays. When I realize how privileged I was growing up and how so many people even in my higher middle class small town, aren't as lucky as me. I have a very close relationship with both of my parents, I always had money to do things, and I had a generally kick ass childhood. Now I'm not trying to brag, I just guess it never really hit me that I truely had a very privileged childhood and I still do have a lot of opportunity that I took for granted. If you are reading this right now please go tell whoever takes carrot you that you love them very much because life isn't always good, and people are sometimes born into the worst life. People like me need to be more greatful, especially people who may not have a trillion dollars but, who have a lot of love and people who only want to help you grow because, as every Disney movie teaches us, love is worth more than money and money can't buy the kind of love and support you get from your parents or whoever it is that takes care of you. That kind of love is unmatchable in worth.

I hate boys. I hate how at a young age no one understands that no matter how young we may be, we can be hurt, we are sensitive people! Teenagers don't get how to handle each other, and there is so much drama circulating every little thing that happens. It's like being on television, everyone knows about what goes on in your life, and everyone has an opinion. I wish I could just find someone who liked me for me, and not my body. Is it really that hard to crush on someone's soul and not their physical features? I just don't get why I feel like sometimes I'm the only one that feels that way. It sucks pretty bad, people just really need to grow up. /:

What I learned at CCD today, actually kind of makes sense.

Loving someone isn't about what you get but, what you give. It's about making sure that your doing what's best for them, even if what's best for them is letting them go. Loving someone is about helping them succeed, and helping them grow. Love is more than a kiss, or a smile, it's about knowing in your heart that all you want to do is help them. Love is mutual though, never lose sight of that, love is a shared emotion. So make sure, that while your putting them first, that they are putting you first, and in the end, you're both better off. So while you're out there looking for love, make sure to remember, it's not just physical attraction, it's this constant feeling that no matter where you are in the world or what you're doing that you want to be the support for your other. <3